Chapter of Love - Epilogue

Love.. So what is there to say about love in a final perspective..? More than could ever be put into words I suppose.. There is more to it than we can ever understand.. Yet we try so hard to do so.. But let's be honest, the only thing we can know for certain - is the simple fact that we'll never fully understand.. Love cannot be grasped by our hand - love itself - grasps us.. It's a force to be reckoned with.. I believe it was Vergilius that once said- "Love conquers all things; let us too surrender to love" I can't say different.. Those defiant of love will never be victorious.. For only loss is found in the defiance of ones Heart.. Fear, sorrow or doubt - none of them matters at all.. For there are more important things.. Feelings far more precious.. You see, love is a bittersweet entity.. It'll make you smile, it'll make you cry... And still.. remember the words of Christian and never forget.. That the greatest thing you'll ever learn - is just to love - and be loved in return..

Chapter of Love - Monologue IV

Watching the stars.. Have you ever taken the time to do that..? I have.. I do as often as the night and clouds allow me.. There's something magic about them isn't it..? Something that makes us feel so small, unimportant and expendable.. Every single one of the stars out there have seen more than all of us humans together.. Therefore we wonder about them, they don't wonder about us.. I have to confess something, even though I am well aware, how strange it is going to sound... I'm not sure if it is perhaps my own little characteristic flaw of romanticising the unknown, but still, here it goes.. I'd like to think that the stars indeed are watching over us.. That they are.. shall we say, Guardians.. or perhaps.. Lightbringers... And I don't mean that in the sense that they illuminate our world.. But our mind... Our mind can gather much wisdom from the small fires in the endless darkness of the universe.. You see, I learned something.. I was enlightened... Even though I knew it before, it somehow became clearer, when explained by the stars... I sat there, outside, in the night, freezing... And there they were.. So beautiful... Now here's the thing.. What I wanted, was to make a wish.. And of course you're familiar with the traditional saying, right..? A shooting star is said to make your wishes come true.. Well as I sat there and time went by, there were moments when I almost gave up due to the cold.. But in my Heart I couldn't bear such a defeat.. So I decided not to.. I stayed instead.. Thus, I passed the test of determination.. But it wouldn't take long before I faced yet another test - Devotion... Because, from time to time, I felt a desire, a weakness, to look away, if only for a brief moment.. I nearly took my eyes away from the silver dust... But I didn't.. Because something Told me, that if I were to, then I'd be sure to miss my wish.. So I passed the test, hence earning a new quality in myself - Patience.. Then I was rewarded with yet another gift.. For at last.. the stars began to fall... I made my wish.. Whether it will come true or not, I can't Tell at this moment.. But that's not the point anyway.. The bottom-line is this.. When you have a goal, something strive after, then you must be sure to give it all your undivided attention.. Because if you stray from your wish, your desire, if just for a second.. then you might miss it entirely... and then there is a chance that it'll never come back... You see, standing still, deciding, feeling, and thinking, is a journey no less than any other quest.. And what is a journey..? Is it time spent, distance travelled..? No.. it is the events around and inside that shape us as we travel towards the end... And they will Tell many secrets hidden within the soul of any traveller.. I suppose that what I want to say is this... Determination, patience, and devotion, are all of them things, most needed when pursuing anything worthy of desire... If you lack or lose any of them along the way, then your quest might prove to be in vain.. But if you have carried them with you always, or if their presence arise with time and effort.. then you can feel proud.. That alone is a priceless gift, something of greater value than you could ever imagine.. Hopefully.. in the end... the triad of travelling will have served you well... "Sic itur ad astra.. - By effort, we reach the stars."

Chapter of Love - Monologue III

You now, I remember someone saying that friendship can turn to love.. But love never turns to friendship.. Now isn't that something worthy of remembrance..? I have no doubt about it whatsoever.. The thing is though, that when one of two friends fall in love in the other, that causes. shall we say.. complications.. Think about it, doesn't love change everything forever..? The eyes that you once laid on each other, are now different.. How could they not be... You have declared your undying love to someone who doesn't love you back.. Not more than a friend anyway... So how can you solve this little problem? You can't.. Feelings can't be controlled.. Love won't fade simply because of wishes for a simpler relationship.. So what can you do.. Well, go on loving.. But keep it to yourself.. If you truly love your dearest, you cannot let love slip of your tongue.. Why make the complicated, more complicated..? How would you feel if, let's say your best friend declared love beyond friendship.. Love that you are incapable of returning.. Even though it's not your fault, I can imagine a sense of guilty conscience.. Etienne Ray said, "The best proof a man can give his love, is by keeping it hidden.." I'm not saying that you shouldn't take a chance, I mean, of course it could be worth it.. But once you've taken that fateful step, you need to accept whatever it is that may follow.. If your Heart gets broken, then so be it.. Pick up the shards and put them back together in their rightful place.. Even a bleeding Heart can serve the purpose of keeping one's feelings.. Let them dwell there in silence.. If time lets them fade away.. Then your Hearts will, have come to pass.. If not.. If your feelings never die, then at least you can live with the comforting thought that you know what it truly means to love.. It is important that we always remember and never forget, that love is a mighty feeling.. One that should always be cherished.. returned or not..

Chapter of Love - Monologue II

"Tanta stultitia mortalium est.." Humans.. A more arrogant species has never walked on the face of the Earth.. They rarely think, yet think they know... "I know this, I know that.." They are born, they live, they learn.. Knowledge is what they see, when in fact it's sometimes just an illusion of arrogance.. Of course, I could be wrong.. Claiming anything else at this point would just be.. arrogant.. So let's test my theory, shall we..? Then let us begin now... I have a question and a favour to ask of you if I may.. It's quite simple, something you can do with your eyes closed, and without any effort.. Now here the favour.. I'd like for you to imagine yourself picking up a stone, with eyes closed, simple as it is... holding the stone in the palm of your hand for a moment or so.. and then after a while.. letting go of it.. Do this now.. Are you done..? Here's my question.. Tell me please, for I am curious, what happened with the stone..? It fell to the ground, right..? Now here's my thought.. Even though this was all just make-believe I'm quite confident that you agree with me, that you are so sure the fate of the imaginary stone, would turn out exactly the same in reality.. It would fall to the ground.. That's just how it is.. Gravitation has taught us that things simply won't stay floating in the air if there's nothing there to bear it.. Sir Isaac Newton learned that the hard way, or so the legend says.. However... now I will Tell you something that you probably won't expect... About this stone of yours.. If you will do exactly the same thing one more time, what will happen..? Take a moment and think about it.. I'm gonna play the odds a little bit, and claim that you stick by the first theory... It falls to the ground... And ok, I can go along with that.. But only that far before I turn around to you, saying that you are wrong... I say that it won't fall to the ground no more even if you were to try again.. And now I would like for you to prove me wrong.. Naturally, in order for you to do that, I will have to be there by your side, seeing the stone, watching it fall and witnessing its impact on the ground.. So lets use our imagination, both of us, together, shall we..? There you are and so am I, right by each others side.. Now let's get going, ok..? Do exactly the same thing again... Go back up a few lines if you have forgotten.. Pick up the stone.. Wait... Before you go on, I will give you a chance to surrender, if you have not already.. So think about it, within a few lines the stone will fall, and you'll have no choice but to decide for yourself what fate you claim to await it.. The same as the first time, or a different one.. Think... see.. Imagine us standing there together.. You with a stone in your hand, and me with an determined smile.. But enough now, here we go.. Drop the stone.... It's falling, falling, falling down, now you decide.. It's falling, falling, falling down, now you decide.. It's falling, falling, falling down, now you decide.. It's falling, falling, falling no more.... Open your eyes.. Do you know what you see..? Me... with the stone.. in the palm of my hand... How on earth did this happen..? Perhaps you are smarter than I thought and sensed something strange when I asked of you to close your eyes, even in your imagination, and thus questioning my motives.. Perhaps you never saw it coming.. However I did this for two reasons.. The first: You don't need your eyes to know that the stone will fall to the ground.. Logic and reason Told you the outcome even before the stone left your hand.. However, with your eyes closed you couldn't see my hand beneath yours, waiting to save the innocent stone... Even though this is all just a theory, our imagination, you have to admit that the passing would turn out the same in reality.. The second reason: If you close your eyes, they see nothing.. It's just dark.. Therefore you had to imagine watching yourself, standing beside.. The first time you saw yourself dropping a stone that fell to the ground.. The second time you saw the two of us.. and the stone falling to the ground yet again.. That is what you saw, that is the truth you knew until I Told you differently... Until I Told you what most likely would happen if our imaginative situation turned into reality... The lesson is this.. There are very few things that we can know for sure.. What once were, might not always be.. Past experience can never prove the future... Without testing ourselves every now and then we will never fail.. never learn.. and never succeed... When regarding love, the feelings, the words, the truth within us, it's a common thing to hold back, thinking about a loving past filled with betrayal and tears, afraid that it might rise once more and bring us down again.. That is how our mind works.. That is the truth as our eyes see it.. But eyes can be deceiving.. What we see isn't always what's there.. Love is a sad thing in a complicated world.. Not all who are meant to be - find each other.. And some who do - are too afraid to follow their Heart.. Love can be the most beautiful, as well as the cruellest of all fates.. Remember that..

Chapter of Love - Monologue I

Listen here.. I want you to picture yourself on a wide open meadow beneath a rising storm.. There are dark clouds upon you.. and from time to time it seems as if heaven itself is set on fire.. then a lightning strikes down, tarring the sky asunder.. And even though you're well aware that it's not a safe place for you to be , you can't manage yourself to leave and take your eyes of the magnificent play, that Mother Earth brings to the stage.. To me - that's what love is.. Powerful.. dangerous.. and yet.. so beautiful.. And therefore I have decided.. that I will see Love through.. to the very end if it wills me to do so..

Chapter of Love - Prologue

I have through the years heard a lot of things said about Love. And I've found that many speak of Love, as if there is a choice behind it. As if we must decide whether to Feel, or not. Which iof course is a complete lie..That's nothing more than a mere delusion of a foolish mind - believed to be in control. People worry about logic and compatibility - thus blinding themselves from what it's all really about - The magical spells, the unexplained passion, and fires of desire that burns so intensly in the Heart of those - who dares to open it for their chosen one. Alas, far too seldom people do anything of such. Somewhere along the way, their Hearts get lost, as they put their faith in what they see - rather in what they feel. They forget about the far more important things - like the mysterious and untaimed entity that is Love. Listen, please, I deeply implore.. In a world of sorrow - where smiles are far too rare - you need to let your Heart guide you. Feel, don't hold back. Do not think or try to understand the what and why that lies behind. It will bring you nothing. Just remember these words and then surrender...let yourself go. Remember.. that Love is at its purest, when it makes no sense all..

Give me time...

My name is Angivel.. And I intend to share with you all, everything I've learned about life.. I will whisper my secrets for anyone who dares to listen.. I've been a writer - or poet if you wish - for about five years now.. I have so far only written one book, and I have about 35 more to go.. However, though I understand that blogs are supposed to be be journals or whatever - my desire is to spread the word of what I've come to know.. And so far, I'm not that great on how to make this blog go around, so until I learn, you'll have to bear with me..